Hmm...todae was like a roller coster ride for me.

20th January....the day i'm suppose to be exhilarated about frm the moment i woke up in the morning. But no...I felt noting. The night before I was kinda upset that dun feel the excitement anymore. And true enuf, this morning when i woke up, it was just like every other day. Not a single wish frm my family, until now. I had my period todae...so that really spoils my mood. And my eyes had to go swollen just when the fun was about to begin.

i really had a bad morning...how i wish i could be with my frens rather than trapped at home. The whole day is wasted. I could haf so much fun in skool...celebrating it wif my frens. But i chose to be alone at home.Why?? Why did i made that decision?? Why did i leave the skool for my home?? There's noting at home....there's noting at all azira. just why the hell did u go home??

My class gave me a surprise birthday party. I was so embarrased at first, coz i look so bad. i'm supposed to look pleasant, after all it's my birthday. But i looked horrible!! I looked like I've been punched on both eyes. I was really thankful for them to haf that surprise party. I was crying with joy when they sang me tat birthday song. My first birthday song for the day.....for the first time, it felt like someone really care about me after a long time. i was really touched. i just wish that I could turn back the time n start the day all over again. i wan to start the day wif joy, not another gloomy day.

When i was walking out of the skool, susu hold me up to pass me another birthday cake. i was really touched...I felt like crying again...they wanted to give me another "party". This time I really realy wish that I could really turn back the time, n not haf this stupid swollen eyes. just y did it haf to happen on my birthday?? I really shouldnt haf gone home...even wif the swollen eyes. I should haf just stayed at skool.

MSg to all my frens:

to Sita, Shenes, Gaga n Francis:
thanks for that surprise class party. I knoe u guys are the mastermind of all this. haha...u guys really made my day. I really really appreciate that "party". The cake was delicious too. and it's chocolate!! My favourite!! keke...thanks again to sita(simon), shenes(sally), gaga(ward sister) n francis(professor). I really really love u guys.

to my classmates:
haha...yah thanks to u guys for participating in that birthday song. keke...I'm sure u guys would be honoured when i say that u guys had just sang me the first b'dae song for the day. yah...i knoe i was kinda too emotional to be crying when u guys sing tat song, but that shows i really do appreciate it. thanks alot for making my day n give me the feeling of a birthday gerl back. That is the best present i ever had.

to susu, my gf:
i knoe i kinda spoil ure plan to haf a second b'dae party for me, so i'm sorry for that. I should haf just stayed in skool wif the swollen eyes. but anyway, thanks for the cake. I will not touch it until monday. We will cut the cake together k wif the rest of the gang. Of course we can skip the b'dae song part. I've not peep on the cake even. So monday will be the day i first see the cake. I dun wan to ruin the surprise u guys had planned. Thanks again su.

To my sayang:
muah...u're the best-est bf i ever had. iin fact. u're my 1st and onli bf and i'm not ashame of that. thanks alot for being there for me...always. haha...u were the first person to wish me happy birthday, even if there's another 3 more hrs to go. and thanks for trying to make me feel happy on my birthday. tml we're gng to go zoo. I just cant wait to see u. i miss u so much. love u sayang.

i really wish that i could start the whole day again.

happy birthday to me...

frm me.