Had my grp meeting in the morning then went to meet my sayang at Jurong East. WeeEee...wan to knoe wat's the exciting part is?? I get to ride on his bike again. WeeeEee....and yah, u heard me rite, i had to go all the way to Jurong east frm Yio chu kang coz he doesnt knoe how to get to my plc. keke...my sayang is so cute. It's ok sayang, i'll wait until u knoe the way k. muah...Wan to knoe another exciting part of the day?? He let me play around wif his bike. It was so fun..keke. He taught me how to start a bike n get it going, n now, I'm like the expert in starting the bike. kekeke...felt so high at that moment tat i almost wanted to buy a biker's jacket n wear it. hahha. hey, it's not as easy as u tink it is ok. To do tat kick start i had to use my whole body weight and at the same time to balance the bike, n for ure info, his bike's weight is not like carrying ure school bag. It's like balancing "Big Mama's" ass on both hands.

Went to watch Pink Panther at Jurong Point n guess who we ran into. Yurihan n his girl. haha...wat a small world after all. And that's not all, coincidentally they're watching the same movie as us n their seats were just next to ours. wahahha....now tat makes the world even much more samller.

Pink Panther was awesome. It is so damn funny n just full of nonsense. U guys should really catch it. It's about this detective, who is somewhere in the middle of blur n stupid, trying to solve a mystery case. With the help of another "junior" detective, they went arnd the town investigating the murder of a famous soccer team's coach. I can bet u that u'll be laughing throughout the whole show.

On the way back home, i ran into Sharazad n her guy, mat Noh i tink, forgt the name already. yah...the world is really veri veri tiny.

WARNING!!!
The following scene may lead to ear damage.
It's advisable to haf ure ear muffs on.

*ahem ahem*

"HaaaaaAAppPppYYyyy Bird day to u!!!
HaaAAAAapPpPpYYyY Bird day to u!!
HaaaaPppPpYyYy Bird day to susu!!
HaaAAPpPPYYyY Bird day to u!!"

U are now safe to take off ure ear muffs.

WooHooo!! finally sumbody turned 19 todae. At last....this is ure last teenage year and after this year, u haf to start cooking at home. kekek....oh well, a msg to her: "Happy Birthday!! I havent gt ure b'dae present yet coz i'm waiting for my payment tml. So it's kinda URE fault for being born 1 day early. Anyway, i hope u had a "refreshing" time over my "temporary" b'dae gift. Dun be too happy coz u are still tied by ure parent's chain. kekek...so no sex yet ok."

Was so pissed off wif myself just now coz i couldnt make myself to talk when he/she confronted me. I was totally mind blank. Then right after i left the scene, suddenly i had a lot of things to say to him/she. Why the hell did i go blank?? He/she was like blaming me for everything and i just stood there listening instead of throwing that accusations back at him/her. I've lost the respect i had for him/her since the day he/her decided to show the ugly/bully side of him/her. And if he/she wans the whole class to treat him/her as a classmate, he/her better start behaving himself/herself and start learning how to respect others. For that fren of mine, as long as ure wif him/her, we will not go near u guys until he/her has change for the better or u break off wif him/her. U dun wan me to interfere or take any advice that i gave u, so go n be happy wif him/her(which i'm sure u'll barely get).

Ppl can really test ure patience level. It's them who provoke u first and then they say that we are being nasty to them. What bullshit. U can go n tell all ure frens (that can be counted wif ure hands) how bitchy the whole lot of us are and i can get the whole NYP agree wif me that u are just a pain in the ass. Guess wat, in case u dun knoe, the whole class can just kick u out of our class, n by the time u gt kick out, other classes would haf knwon abt u. So...the main point here is tat, U GT NO ONE ALREADY!!!! U BLOODY HELL GT NO ONE BY URE SIDE!!!

too bad sucker....

Slugging infront of the school's com again. Tomorrow we haf another presentation to do. *sigh* Tired and pooped out already. But not stress out yet. kekek....Just hopefully we got everything rite tml n that our presentation info is not too little....well, we onli haf 20 min to present wat, u dun expect a 2 hr speech rite. But seems that they say the lecturers expect the "DM" presentation to be very informative...but then again, a 5min presentation can be informative too wat.

I gt a few mcq for u guys to do. Pls ans the qn for those who are free.

Let's say u haf this fren who's very very close to u. He or she is like ure good fren already. Then he or she went steady wif the worst character ever. Ure fren started to hang arnd wif tat gf/bf more. And this gf/bf of ure fren created so much nuisance to ure class. Now, u knoe that this gf/bf of hers/his is not a good person at all. In fact, he/she is like a devil in a shape of an angel. U tried to advice this good fren of ures but he/she is still in the wonderland n blinded by love. What will u do next??
(a) continue advicing
(b) leave her/him alone until sumting happen that makes him/her to realize it
(c) slap his/her face left right, up down front and back till he/she wakes up
(d) kidnap the bf/gf and throw him/her in the middle of Iraq war

Ure fren and the bf/gf is fighting in the classroom. The fighting gt heated up that they started beating up each other. 'Y' tried to help ure fren coz the bf/gf is strangling ure fren already. Then suddenly ure bf/gf wanted to attack 'Y'. The class manage to stop him/her. Ure fren and the bf/gf left the classroom. 'Y' is in a state of shock. The whole class is in a state of shock. More over, 3 groups are suppose to do an ICA presentation in 3 mins time. U realize that the presenters are still in shock and their whole presentation gt affected. U msg ure fren n told her/him that they owe the class an apology for creating so much trauma. Ure fren say he/she will think abt it and until now, not a single "sorry" was heard. Do u...
(a) leave the whole matter alone
(b) march straight up to them, tie a leash arnd their neck, drag them infront of the class, n order them to bark "sorry"
(c) slap ure fren's face left right, up down,front back and inside out
(d) kick them both out of the class and paste "ure not invited" sign on the door

Ure fren n the gf/bf is in ure ICA group. So far, they had not done much werk other than just displaying their face during the meeting. Do you...
(a) close both eyes (including ure 3rd eye if u haf one) and forget abt it
(b) tell them at their face that they are not laying any eggs so we will haf to slaughter them soon
(c) for future projects, u pass all the werk to them n the rest of the members go watch "Final Destination 3"
(d) u send both of them in the middle of an Iraq war this time

Last and final qn. Ure fren is still ure fren. The whole class is avoiding them but u feel that ure fren is not fully to be blame. The gf/bf is the one who's creating all the trouble n ure fren is just an innocent girl/boy with a brain tat is smaller than an ant's size. U really wan to make him/her see that that bf/gf of hers/his is not worth chasing for. But so far, it goes into ure fren's ear and out of the nose/mouth/vagina/penis/asshole. Do u...
(a) still be his/her ONLY fren n tries to advice him/her, hopefully she/he listens this time
(b) stop talking to him/her n treat him/her as an enemy until he/she decided to dump the bf/gf
(c) borrow an AK47 rifle from saddam hussein, then tell ure fren that we're playing police and theif for our next grp meeting
(d) stuff cotton ball into his/her nose/mouth/vagina/penis/asshole so that there's no leakage

ure reply will be kept strictly confidential. Thank u for participating in this questionaire.

*continue slugging....*

Found this at zizie's blog....

azira -- [adjective]: Similar to butter in texture and appearance 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

wat does tat suppose to mean....

Decided to wait for susu to end her Clinical Lab evening class. So i thought might as well i do some werk in the com lab. And when i finally reach the com lab, tat "determination" to do my CBT had just disappeared into thin air. So yah, might as well I update my blog after it has been abandoned for sooooooo many days.

Kinda feel sad rite now coz my one and only chance to go "travelling" was burnt into ashes. I was supposed to go for a one-day trip to Mallacca wif Ijal's family, and u cant imagine how happy and excited I was. I was basically counting the days down, deciding wat to wear and wat to buy back for all my frens. And surprisingly, my father even gave me the green light. So yah, I was thinking all about the Mallacca trip ever since then. But then, yesterday Ijal told me tat it was cancelled coz the tickets were all sold out.

AARRGGHHH!!!!!!!

WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!!

THaat's like my golden ticket to heaven!!! Just why did u haf to take tat away frm me!!!!

*sigh*....anyway, after my exams, i'm gng to haf my 4weeks of holiday before my 2 months of attachment straight, so i'm not gng to put my holidays to waste. I've made up my mind that I will go travelling, even if it's only to malaysia, before i go to yr 3....so kinda haf to go through the whole begging process with my parents again.....*sigh*

susu's bdae coming.....dunno wat to get her....

but i'm sure she wont mind if i were to forget her b'dae....we r sisters after all.....

project werks r piling up again....test and exams are coming.....haf to start my revision soon if i wan to get into yr 3.....

*sigh*....

will life get any better...

Yah, by the way, yesterday my mom talked to me. After 1 month++ i think....finally she said something to me. She said "I'm gng out. Clean the house until i come back home. Remember to bring in the laundry. Cook the rice before ure bro comes home. Tell ure bro dun play games. I gng out already." Although it sounded more of like a command....but still....the bottom line is she talked to me!!! haha...ppl might think i'm crazy coz i get excited over a command, but u guys dunno how desperate i am to feel just alive and not being tranparent at home. Those words were like music to my ears eventhough she was kinda raising her voice at me.
oh well....still...she talked to me.

Next week will be our 1 week holiday. Thought of having a picnic at sentosa wif the gerls, but zie will still be having her exams i tink, n sya also. So there's kinda no point having it....*sigh*. it sux to haf a different timetable.....missing Aisyah too....

Msg to the gerls: Let me knoe when will u guys be free k!! So that we can haf the next gathering soon. Miss u gerls!!

And miss u too sayang.

YEAH!!!!!

I'm so damn happy!!!

I'm vely vely happy!!!

Super duper happy!!!!

My bio test is finally over and all i haf to do now is to disturb those ppl who haf not taken it yet.

Hopefully i onli make 10 mistakes.....

To my frens frm other class who haf not taken ure bio test yet...

FAIL!!!

FAIL!!!

FAIL!!!

kekek....k, i can see tat u wan to tear my vagina already....

good luck to u ppl.

"Failing to prepare, is preparing to fail"

Life is cruel. Yes...I knoe. But what i dun understand is why do some of them seems to be enjoying life so much that they barely haf any problem at all. Life is being very cruel to me rite now. The cruelity haf been so deep that at any moment, I might just end my whole existance in this world.

But then again, if I were to be me, I should be taking this as a challenge. I should see it as an opportunity to test my perserverance and my "iman". And i should see it as, god must haf love me so much that that's why he's giving me all this challenges. Cos at the end of every challenges that haf been succesfully faced, a huge golden reward is waiting for me at the end of the line. And after all this cruelity and suffering I'm facing, it will soon be over and I shall enjoy with the rewards that haf accumulated at the finishing line. I will not give up yet and I will still continue to strive for the happiness that i've been searching. I will not bother much about the ppl around me. I will just do what i think is good for myself. Morever, because of "them", I haf change is many ways...
(1) i'm more hot temnpered, irritable n a hypocrite
(2) i'm more arrogant and selfish than i tink i am
(3) i'm always sulking and moody and soon, i'll get wrinkles by the age of 20 instead of 30
(4) i hate everybody in this world even the one who had given birth to me
(5) i'm thinking more about giving up and to be extinct

I should not get them in my way. It's time for me to do something about myself instead of blaming others. Only me alone can change my destiny. And only me can narrate the story of my life. if i want people to give me the respect, fairness and happiness, I should give it to them first. Then will only they repay it back to me...

Man...I see girls with flowers n choclates everywhere.

To u guys out there who celebrate Valentine's Day, well..happy V day to u guys. A message to u ppl, hope that the relationship u are on now, will last forever.

As for me...nah...I dun celebrate valentine's day at all...and our monthly anniversary...and our yearly anniversary...keke. Both of us are too lazy to do that and also coz we knoe that both of us are special to each other so we dun need those days to prove that we love each other. kekke...get wat i mean?? We'd rather save those money for our weedding day. Now that's what i call a celebration....

But still, I'm glad that they haf a V day on the calendar coz this is the only day u can see some of the guys do funny funny stuffs just to prove that he loves her. keke...just now in the morning, i just saw a guy singing a song n playing the guitar to his gf at the mrt. For goodness sake...ppl are in a hurry to go to werk and here u are blocking everybody's way singing 1 patehtic song to 1 audience. kekeke....not to mention those horrible nightmare voice. I hope he didnt join Singapore Idol. But hey....I'll still salute him coz he still haf the guts to display his "wonderful" voice to the crowd.

K..time to go for class...

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

I lay in bed alone and cry,
And here is why i wished to die.
I breath in words of critics and abuse,
I breath out hopes of merriment and dreams.
I see those faces that tied me down,
I see them here, I see them there.
I swallowed the fact that u hate me now,
I swallowed it hard, i swallowed it down.
And I drank those venoms that u spat out,
For I'm just a slave, a drudge, a villein.
I'm showered with the icy cold of your stare,
But then again, how could it be?
Coz u didnt even turn and look at me.
If this is what is meant by Life,
It sure is doesnt feel alive.
If this is what Life is teaching,
Then Life is not good at leading.

Miss me??...Miss me??..Miss me??....

I bet u guys do. I bet u guys haf been peeping into my blog every single day to check if there's anything new n when u see the same old entry, u smash the keyboard, bite off ure mouse's wire and scream "WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!".

keke...yah, wild imagination. Been really busy and LAZY (especially) lately. I knoe u guys misss me, so i took off 15min of my precious time from my schedule just to update this, eventhough i haf 3 projects to finish up. See how nice I am...awwww...

K, had my BBQ on last sat with my classmates. WAS DAMN FUN!!! This time we had more food. kekee....all my diet goes to waste now. Was happily setting the fire when suddenly it started to.......

R R R R R R R R R
A A A A A A A A A
I I I I I I I I I
N N N N N N N N N
! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Yeah...desperately trying to save the fire

But after awhile, as the rain gt harder, we gave up and went to Plan B. Wan to knoe wat Plan B is...???? Loook.....

Verry creative aren't we??

Was so proud of ourselves. At least there's some clever ppl among us. Our next pit neighbour tried to use dried coconut leaves to shelter their fire. They look just like teh cavemen.

Oh well, more pictures will be uploaded into my photo album so pls be patient. Rite now i'm using the school's com so i cant really share much photo with u. It's takes years just to put in 3 pictures...

YEah!! Tomorrow we're having a BBQ again. As usual, we're over budget but at least it's only a few bucks. This time i've learnt my lesson, we collected the money first n there's no refund after u hand the money to us...(actually we did return back those money who really couldnt make it wif valid reason). But anyway...tml is our BBQ!! YiPPE!!! This time we haf more food!! Coz some of them dun mind sponsoring certain things.

By now, i guess all of u would haf heard abt the "mudering of chickens" tale. Yeah...I gt a serial killer who came to my house on wednesday nite. But she only has grudge on the chickens. I dunno wats her problem with them but she seriously need some help. For goodness sake...the chickens are dead!! kekeke....she's so cute.

Met zizie at dhoby ghaut yesterday on my way to skool. hehe...so difficult to see her face in skool. Really hope one day all of us can haf a girl's outing again. Been dying to try that Han River. just wonder when....

Asked my father about the KL trip again...i guess u guys knoe the ans too rite. Yep, a solid NO!! *sigh*. i just wan to go travelling wif my frens before i get married, just like u all doesnt wan to die a virgin.

*sheesh*

Trying so safe money...coz i seriously need to get a new phone. My phone now is at DIL stage already...I need to call the mortuary soon. Maybe my next phone will be that Nokia 7610. I knoe that it's kinda old already to some of u guys...but i find that the picture quality is very good. Now since i can't get my digicam...(coz he insist that phone is more important), so i guess Nokia 7610 is "heart warming" enuf.