Life is cruel. Yes...I knoe. But what i dun understand is why do some of them seems to be enjoying life so much that they barely haf any problem at all. Life is being very cruel to me rite now. The cruelity haf been so deep that at any moment, I might just end my whole existance in this world.

But then again, if I were to be me, I should be taking this as a challenge. I should see it as an opportunity to test my perserverance and my "iman". And i should see it as, god must haf love me so much that that's why he's giving me all this challenges. Cos at the end of every challenges that haf been succesfully faced, a huge golden reward is waiting for me at the end of the line. And after all this cruelity and suffering I'm facing, it will soon be over and I shall enjoy with the rewards that haf accumulated at the finishing line. I will not give up yet and I will still continue to strive for the happiness that i've been searching. I will not bother much about the ppl around me. I will just do what i think is good for myself. Morever, because of "them", I haf change is many ways...
(1) i'm more hot temnpered, irritable n a hypocrite
(2) i'm more arrogant and selfish than i tink i am
(3) i'm always sulking and moody and soon, i'll get wrinkles by the age of 20 instead of 30
(4) i hate everybody in this world even the one who had given birth to me
(5) i'm thinking more about giving up and to be extinct

I should not get them in my way. It's time for me to do something about myself instead of blaming others. Only me alone can change my destiny. And only me can narrate the story of my life. if i want people to give me the respect, fairness and happiness, I should give it to them first. Then will only they repay it back to me...