recently i dun really haf the mood to blog. even todae actually, i dun really feel like blogging. But because i totally got nothing else to do n i'm totally bored, i guess it leaves to computer as the only option left.


Todae is sunday, 30 april 2006....which means i'm left wif only 1 MORE WEEK OF FREEDOM!!! AARRGGHHH!!! *panic attack* y do time haf to fly by so fast......I still wan to enjoy my holiday. I still haf not haf enuf of holiday....bbwwaahhh.....*snif snif* Going to IMH for my first attachment. i wonder wats the place like. i heard lots of stories about the patients there. Yah, they are crazy....to the extend that they masturbate in the open, haf sex wif another patient in the closet n yah..there were cases of possess too. HOW EXCITING!!! haha...cant wait to go there actually but not really looking forward to see the staff nurses there. Heard that they dun welcome NYP students. They havent even meet us and they already hate us. NOT FAIR!! These are the kind of ppl i dislike.....I'll make sure that i wont turn out like one of them.


Exam results were out 2 days ago. WooHooo~ I passed!!! Kinda proud of myself this time. Did better than the last semester. Actually, as long as i pass, i got no problem wif it at all. haha...Going into yr 3 soon. Damn it. I'm gng to be a senior. I haf to knoe about almost everything. If I dun....NO GrAduAtion!!! AARRGHHH!!! *panic attack again* I'm really not looking forward for yr 3. More responsibilities....more expectations....more stress.....then before u knoe it, u found ureself werking in SGH already. And this time u cant run away anywhere else coz u gt ure ass bonded to the hospital. *sigh* There's no break in life at all. After completing 1 stage of ure life, u are pushed into the next stage of life. No time to celebrate or congratulate ureself for completing the earlier satge. By the time u wan to, u find ureself again worrying abt wat's the next day gng to be like. I'm sure u guys haf gone through this before rite?? In a period of time u constantly worry abt ure life, work, etc. It starts off wif just a simple harmless qn of "will i be fine werking there?". Then it sparks another qn "wat if i cant get along wif the ppl there??"...n again.."wat if i dun knoe how to do most of the tings?"...and again..."wat if i make a major mistake, wat if i accidentally kill my patient?"...and again. In the end, u feel too scared n afraid to do anything.


My parents went to Johor yesterday's afternoon n will only be back late tonite. So the 4 of us are left alone at home. This is the time when i train myself to be a housewife. haha...hey, i'm 19 already, i've gt to knoe where my standards are. So for the 2 whole days, u'll see me slaving at home. cleaning the house, wash the dishes, do the laundries, prepare dinner......n many many many more. Todae for the first time i manage to prepare a homecook meal all by myself for the first time. Fried kangkong n boiled egg curry. the kangkong was kinda easy (although i put too much of the sambal so it looks more of like "fried sambal wif kangkong" rather than "fried kangkong wif sambal"). But i was more worried abt my curry. I had never cook curry all by myself before so frm the start till the end, i was praying so hard tat i wont spoil the curry. And it turned out quite well. Its not tat bad actually. Only thing is tat the curry is not quite the same as the my mother cook it. this one is more Indian-like cooking, u knoe the kind of curry that u see lots of curry leaves swimming in the gravy. And it has this spicy sour-taste. The next time my parents gng away, i'm gng to try n cook chicken curry!! But first, must learn how to cut the chicken.


I wan to go jogging again tml. where are my "kaki-s"???