Like i said...the feeling will come back up again. This time it's not just her, it's the other her too. Just why cant i ignore them n just be happy wif the ppl i haf around me. seriously...


As long as i knoe that i haf a reason for every choice tat i make, y must i feel guilty.? It's he the one who makes us enemy. I hate myself. i hate myself for being so understanding, to always thinks abt others, and to always try to understand others until i feel guilty n forget abt wat they actually did to me.


Eventhough i sense a feeling of hatred towards them, i still hope n wish that things will just heal up n it will be just like before. I'm not afraid to say tat i'm just waiting for the "day" to come. And when tat "day" comes, i'd be standing on top of the world n shout "I TOLD U SO!!" rite at ure face. Yah i knoe, it sounds evil. but tats exactly wat i feel. just waiting now.....


And ppl, if u wan to get some attention, just speak with an american accent n say that u grew up in U.S. u'll get all the attention u wan....